Sunday night was one of those “self-assessment” times after I get to spend some time with Mr. Scrooge.

It was a cold, chilly night and after an hour of boredom in Starbucks ATC, Ian and I decided to head over to MOA for a “girls” night out. The supposedly gimmick turned into a movie date when we found out that “A Christmas Carol” is being shown in IMAX. So without second thoughts, we headed over to the ticket booth to pay for our tickets. Few minutes after, I found myself crying over the movie.

As a kid, Christmas has always been my favorite time of the year. I can still remember how my mother teases me about how I used to sing Christmas songs with an out-of-tune voice. But as I grow older, I realized that what made Christmas special to me (aside from celebrating Jesus Christ’s birthday) aren’t the gifts we received, the parties we get to attend or the firework displays. Ever since I became aware of the things happening around me, everyday seemed to be filled with dreaded bad news, bad people doing bad things to innocent people. Christmas is the only time when I can actually feel that people are nice (or trying to be *lol*) and that people are trying to do something good for a change. And Christmas is the only time when I wake up in the morning with a happy, contented feeling.

But so much has happened to me, some things that are bound to change me. And while watching that movie, All I can think of is this, “How do I let go of something that I’ve always believed in”?

The fact remains that Iglesia ni Cristo doesn’t celebrate Christmas. And I know I promised my God that I’ll do anything to make up for what I’ve done to Him before. I just don’t know how or where to start to make myself stop believing in Christmas day.

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